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Day 30 on Estradiol

As I type this, my evening dose of Estradiol is dissolving under my tongue.  Today is my 30th day on Estradiol.  I can honestly say that I feel great!  

I’m sorry I haven’t been on Tumblr lately.  My days have been pretty full for the past few weeks.  I can’t discuss the matter in detail but I am preparing a legal brief for a constitutional law case regarding transgender individuals.  That is all I can publish until I have been able to meet with an attorney to submit the brief for docket request and review by a judge.  It’s not something that will happen quickly but it will have the potential of changing many lives if the case is cleared and upheld.

Regarding myself, I have seen many changes thanks to my current treatment.  My first two weeks were dosed at 1mg Estradiol along with my current anti-androgen meds and then upped to 2mg for the past two weeks.  I was seeing changes after the first week but once we upped the dose to 2mg, the changes came more quickly and were more pronounced.

Everyone reacts to HRT in their own way.  I was discussing my current effects with my friend, Dawn and she was comparing it to her first 39 days of treatment.  I am more sensitive to estrogen than she is, due to having two X chromosomes.  My breast development has been pretty swift, at this point.  This is not necessarily a good thing, in its own way.  When your breast lobes begin to develop quickly, it can be  painful and there can be swelling.  Add to this, My daughter likes to rest her head on me when she sleeps.  This can be very painful, at times.  Padded bras can be a big help.

Cold affects me more now.  My body and facial hair have continued to thin.  My skin is smoother and softer.  My senses are sharper.  This has been the most surprising development.  My senses of smell and taste are much sharper.  My color-sight is clearer.  My sense of touch has become much more pronounced. (I’ll leave it at stating that many parts of my body are much more sensitive to touch now.)

It is easier to get up in the morning and I sleep deeper at night.  I expect this is largely due to no longer having symptoms of chronic depression.  My thoughts are much clearer.  I could not have started on my current brief or the treatise that I am currently writing if I had started them six months ago.  The improvements in my quality of life are very pronounced and many doctors should be very ashamed for depriving this needed treatment to transgender clients.

I’m going to wrap up here, as I need to let my wife get some sleep for work tomorrow.  Daylight Saving Time really throws us all off.

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Phew. That’s proving to be a load off…

I’ve definitely been bloated. Two days on estradiol and I’ve shed almost four pounds of water weight.

I just need to keep up my diet and exercise now!

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Moving forward with HRT. Finally!

Got my prescription for Estradiol filled today.  I’ll be taking 1mg split over a.m. and p.m. for the first four weeks then I’ll move to 2mg split for two months before my next retest. (Provided there are no problems.)

It has taken too long and there is still a long way to go but I’ll not deny progress!

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No but guys, GUYS, we need to talk about how important this scene is.  Because the commonly accepted lore about unicorns is that they are so good and pure that they’ll only appear to young virginal girls.  Because Molly Grue is a middle-aged woman who has been living with bandits for most of her life and is as far from innocent and virginal as you’re likely to get.  Because she’s so angry that this creature, embodying everything that society tells her she’s lost, everything she’s thrown away through her own choices, is here now when all that The Unicorn represents is long since behind her.  Because she knows, in a way that only someone who’s been steeped in an oppressive system her entire life can ever know, that she’s missed her chance and doesn’t deserve to be seeing a unicorn now.

And you know what?  The Unicorn doesn’t give two fucks about her virginity, about her supposed loss of innocence and purity.  She’s not repelled by Molly being older, being experienced, being a full human person.  None of that has ever mattered to unicorns, only to the people telling stories about them.  Not only does she step in to physically comfort her here, but before long this bandit’s wife becomes her friend, closer to her in most ways than Schmendrick.

This story is fucking revolutionary, you guys, and I just have a lot of feelings about it.

I heard Peter S. Beagle speak about this scene at a convention once. He said he just kept writing and writing into the scene and suddenly here was this powerful, moving dialogue which came out very strong and natural, flowing directly from inspiration.

He said it was one of those moments when “the writer just gets really lucky.” 

God! I love the book and the movie so much. They kept my hope alive in a time when I had none.

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The day has come for Tumblr…

As of today, Tumblr is forcing everyone on sign-in to agree to the new terms of service.  It states up-front that if you do not agree to the new terms, you are not allowed to use the service.  Further, if you post anything that is not explicitly copyrighted, it becomes the property of Tumblr/Yahoo to be used at their discretion and for their profit.  

I have archived my entire Tumblr blog and while I’m not currently planning to delete my Tumblr, I will probably not be posting or reblogging anything here for the foreseeable future.  I believe that I may get my own domain and set up a Wordpress blog, linking the RSS feed to my Tumblr so my posts and material are not directly hosted on Tumblr.

For those interested in archiving their Tumblr posts, here is what I used:

Backup Jammy

This tumblr app works in all systems, since it’s a web app. The process to backup a tumblr blog with this tool is very simple, just visit the page and enter the desired subdomain you’d like downloaded and saved to your computer (Windows, Mac it works the same). Backup Jammy will basically create an HTML file.

  1. Go to Backup Jammy.
  2. Enter Your Tumblr Subdomain
  3. Just leave options as they are
  4. If you have thousands of posts, it will take a while, just wait until the page stops loading, if you scroll down and nothing new shows up, that means the 1st step has finished
  5. Right click on any part of the page and choose “Save Page As”, give it a name and save your tumblr blog to a save location in your computer.

NOTE: The good thing is that you will have all your code intact, you won’t need to reformat it again. The bad side is that so far, there’s no tumblr uploader for the saved file, it needs to be manually.


Hopefully, a resolution to this issue can be found but as this day has been seen coming for months, I’m preparing for the worst.

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Please reblog if you are a girl and have ever been made to feel ashamed of one or more of these things (wanting to prove a point to some asshole):

-your weight

-your clothing choice

-your amount of make up

-having sex

-not having sex

-breast size

-having your period

-saying no

-not appreciating catcalls 


-body hair

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And This Is Why You Shouldn’t Get Sick In America

Many believe that the US healthcare system is the best in the world. Not so according to the World Health Organization’s ranking of the world’s health systems. The US doesn’t even rank in the top 25. It ranks 37th and is the most expensive in the world. I would argue that even if we had the best healthcare system in the world, what good is it, if no one can afford to access it.

Most companies are buying 60/40-policys for their employees these days, but even if you are lucky enough to have good insurance with 80/20-policy coverage, that 20 percent your responsible for can drive you right into bankruptcy as easily as the 60-40 policy given the cost of healthcare.

Insurance cost have been going up dramatically in the last two decades, long before the new Affordable Healthcare Act has taken affect, in some cases as much as 35% per year.

But have you noticed the latest trick the insurance companies have roll out?

Yes, Higher Deductible… most averaging $5,000 per year, per person, but I have seen some as high as $10,000 per year. For those of you that are wondering, this tactic is specifically designed too stop you from using your insurance. It reduces the insurance companies out of pocket liability by shift costs onto consumers, especially those dealing with chronic illness such as diabetes and arthritis. Consequently, because consumers can’t afford the deductible they will avoid necessary care to save money.

Although insurance companies are a problem, the real crocks is the healthcare system it self. A corrupt and bloated system desperately in need of reform!

Everyone needs to read this:,9171,2136864,00.html

and his new series

And know about patient advocacy groups:

Reblogging again for LINKS!

Jesus America fucking scares me with shit like this.  As an Australian, I can tell you that I had cancer and the entire cost of emergency surgery and followup treatment came to something like 70 bucks, which is the gap fee for my initial surgical consult, because everything else fell under Medicare.  Including all three hospital stays, including followup checkups yearly, including the 60+ bloodtests etc and CT scans emergency room fees and hell, dinner every night while stuck in a cancer ward or HDU. 

Hell, I didn’t even pay the 70 bucks because at the time I found I had cancer, I was the poorest in my life and basically living on the charity of others.  Followup meds cost me twenty bucks every three months, and they’d cost me five bucks if I qualified for welfare.  Cheap.  Easy.  Dealable.  Life saving.

And then I see shit like this and just go *jesus*. 

This is the medical reality of the United States.  The Medical and Insurance lobbyists throw money around in Washington D.C. while claiming that they HAVE to charge these rates because they have to cover patients who don’t pay.  No one can reasonably pay these rates.

Tagged: Health Carecorruptioncriminal activity

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did sonic the hedgehog just turn into a fucking magical girl



god i can’t handle the stuff you put on my dash sometimes Tumblr

Sonic just got fabulous!




Harry was the favorite kid and he wasn’t even an official part of the family

Because Molly knows exactly how the Dursleys treat him. There’s no way Ron wouldn’t tell her. And Molly Weasley is a Mother. She gets a capital M because she is goddamn phenomenal at what she does. When she hears Harry Potter is on the train to Hogwarts in Book 1, her reaction isn’t to be starstruck. It’s to say “that poor dear had to come here all on his own.” Molly Weasley loves harder than anyone. She loves like it’s her sole reason for being. And when she hears there’s a poor boy who has never known love his whole life… how could she not?

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